Today’s Never too late to be brand new

its been a month people so hi and hope y’all doing great!

Firstly been back to Wilmington 2 weeks ago and had an awesome time, met loads of OTH people and experienced ‘Target’ which is like Asda but 10 times better!!

The day i got back was pretty hectic, first we travelled back from Manchester, then as soon as we hit Derby i hit the road again to Nottingham to see my family. Haven’t seen them in a long time so it was a perfect day really to see them, i have missed them all loads. After that we headed back to Birmingham where i went to watch the Blues beat Arsenal in the Caring Cup Final, it was an amazing day.

Spent the rest of the week recovering from the flying and also at college. On the Wednesday i went to ‘Think Tank’ in town with my placement. Was an awesome day and you could tell the kids where really enjoying themselves.

Last Saturday i went to see Romeo + Juliet at the new RSC theatre, it was a fantastic play. Sam Troughton and Mariah Gale were perfect as Romeo and Juliet, while other fantastic performances from Jonjo O’Neil , Richard Katz and Pete Peverley.

Sunday was my first shift back at work, was a good shift to come back to and a new dishwasher (finally lol). This weeks ive been at work, tidied my room up a bit and on Wednesday had the most brilliant time at placement. I love doing it, and every week i learn something and how to do new things, its quite awesome to do.

I just want to say thanks to everyone who made that week in Wilmington special, before, during and afterwards.

Mum, Dad, Dan, DJ, John, Jean, Jenna, Hollie, Aston, Lauren, Channon, OTH people, Stan, Beth, Phil, Pete, Sarah, Cousins and BCFC. It was amazing so thanks for al your imput and effort, means the world.

So that’s the latest…until next time peace, off to watch Liverpool in the Europa League, YNWA!!

Hey guys

Hey my wonderful people, hope y’all doing good?

Been a couple of weeks since the one and i have to say nothing has changed apart from the fact i dont give a care anymore. To all them people that want to try and make my life more difficult and like hell. YOU WONT BRING ME DOWN!!

It’s like everybody wants a piece of my atm and do things to piss me off. i’ve had some great advice from Hollie on the phone the other day and from Stephanie Davis on twitter, which has helped so much and now i know what im gonna do, just be confident, be myself and dont let myself be used or walked all over.

I dont talk anymore, honestly i dont. At work, i just want to turn up, do my job and go home. Its not that i dont wanna talk to the people around me, i just dont feel like i can.

I love Wednesday’s at placement. Its the most awesome thing anyoen can do, its perfect for me. Just found out that im 90 per cent sure to be back there on placement in September, which is too awesome cus its where im happiest atm.

I’m going back to America in two weeks but truth im really shitting it. I really have had no time to think about it either which is probably why cus im no where near prepared.

Until next time,

laters

People

Sorry im going to go on a rant again now, kept me up most of the night, so just going to post these things.

I dont get people, i dont think i ever will. Surely anybody herd of freedom of speech??  and people judge for what i put.

If you dont like what i put on facebook or twitter simple…delete me off ure pages. I wont be losing any sleep over it.

Really disapointed that i didnt get to London on Saturday, but things happen for a reason so just looking forward to America now,

Whats annoyed me this year all ready is that 2011 was ment to change. People actually being honest and upfront with me and i know thats not happening. I find out everything eventually. I just wonder when them people will actually tell me.

Another thing is people wonder why i have no confidence at all and talk about Kelly Clarkson most of the time. Truth is, im kind of fed up of people mucking me about. If you mean no just say no, instead of messing me about.

Im done with being walked all over like some twat and making all the effort with people. Most of the time it’s all one way and people know who i value in my life cus ill make an effort with them.

I dont know why i just feel so angry at the moment. Some people just dont help at all with that, infact they just make it worse.

sorry to go on, hope y’all good. best be off to work,

laters!

Here i go with all my thoughts id been saving

Hi guys,

I havent been up to alot since i last blogged apart from work but i have been to college. Been put on the level two course but have to catch up with 6 weeks work ..and there’s alot of it haha. So all the 3 year plan has turned into 2 years, which is awesome, just kind of scary. I’m kind of sad because i loved the class i was in…im gonna miss you guys..honestly…ure all totally awesome. At least im not on my own and Stacy’s coming on to the level 2 aswell..so thats good. Your one of the few people i’ve ever met who hasnt judged me for my Kelly Clarkson thing lol….starburst on me next week and dont forget your C.V :p

All joking aside i think this months going to be so challenging…like one of the most testing months of my life. Placement/coursework/work and trying to socialize , but im ready for it.

On the 15th November it would of been a year since my Nan lost her battle with cancer. There’s not a day i dont think about her and most of the time i feel lost becuase i spoke to her about everything..i dont feel i have anybody like that around these day. That year has gone so quick, its unreal.

And a little message to anybody who thinks there not important or there not getting anywhere.

You are important, you have so many things going for you..job, family and friends who all love you so much and you have to remember there are people out there who love you…always!

Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

Right so the past 5 days have been difficult..been ill and just loads of stuff happening since Friday, stuff with the ‘wtf’ phrase too.

I thought things were falling apart and stuff was happening between people i care about and not being able to do anything was the worst thing. Trying to sort someone out when you dont know exactly whats wrong…kind of sucked. There all sorted now, which im relieved about.

Went to work Monday night and had a laugh, and the cook-off on Tuesday was a laugh too. Awesome new items on the menu and Kitchen being open til 10 too so if it brings in more customers..im all for it. Tuesday night i went to the footie with DJ, Ste, Gav, Gav’s Mrs, Pete and my bro. It was awesome. Nice to spend time doing something totally different.

Went to Derby today to see one of my best friends, Lauren, and had a wonderful time. Just nice to get away for a while and chill. I only seem to be able to get away with chilling out unless im out with Lauren. It was nice to just see her again, spend some time with her and talk about some stuff . Glad to see Jean too….she always makes me feel welcome, just nice to see them both to be fair.

Me and Elle also sorted out our return to Wilmington in February and i really cant wait. Super exicted to go on another adventure of  Lauren + Jason.

until next time,

laters!

Times have changed and so have i

All that ispired me the last few weeks and made me realize how lucky i am to be doing what i’m doing, having the people i have around me, getting my future sorted, having the greatest family and friends i could hope for. 

I have my job, yes its not what i want to do, but at least its paying for things that in really want to do, like my course.

I have a placement sorted for November, which i cannot wait to start but more importantly im on an awesome course with a supportive tutor and awesome classmates. For once, its nice to go and learn something with poeple and not one of them are rude, ignorant or destructive. They are all there for the same reason as me, to work their buts off and create a better future for themselves.

I have the best group of friends i’ve ever had in my life. Supportive, always there when i need to talk or just to vent. my two best friends Dan and Lauren are totally awesome…im not the person i am today without your help and advice.

DJ your always here…weather im happy/sad/angry/fed up…your there and thats all i can ask..i just hope i do as much for you as you do to me. I honestly say that when i get married…your already my best man! i wouldnt dream of asking anybody else.

Lauren, i’ve only known you 8 months but hell i couldnt imagine you out of my life. We’ve been through so much and done so much in such a short amount of time its unreal. Stuff that some friends have to wait 20 years to go through . You have changed how i look at life..(honestly i mean that) and to look at the positives more rather than the bad stuff. I was in a really low place in June and you took time to kick my ass into gear and heal me and i’ll never forget that. I know i moan to you about not seeing you alot, but its only beacause i feel like i owe you so much, i feel like i need to give something back. I really hope were still raving to Kelly in 50 years from now .

Family is the MOST important thing by far. You pick me up when im down. You make me smile/cry/laugh but even with the bad stuff that keeps happening to us, we all are unbelievably strong, and we always come out the other end sticking our finger up to the world. I know everybody says this about there’s and they have every right, but seriously..my family make me go on and fight for everything..there all my drive.

There’s not one i love more than the other…i love you all the same. I am proud to be your son/brother/nephew/cousin/friend/classmate/student and you know why…because im proud of every single one of you.

Whoever you are, , what job you do, how well your doing at school, age, gender, race, how many kids you have. your all as important as eachother and never let anyone tell you any different.

New Song: Never Be The same

i put this on facebook 2 weeks ago but it deleted for some reason? i dunno why…anyways here’s my next song. currently i want to write 3 songs a month, so hopefully ill manage that in November.

This song i wrote on one Thursday afternoon about a month back. one day im gonna write a light hearted song like ‘i want you’ or something haha.  

Anyways here’s the song..enjoy:

1st:

The distance is nothing and the silence is golden.

People try and ruin things and put themselves in the way but i just ignore them.

When you know the truth, you’ll realise what the little stuff mean. I’m scared to say because it will never be the same.

i nearly said how i’ve felt before  but i just think what if we fall?

Chorus:

it will never be the same again, pulling out from each other’s hand. I try to imagine the best scenario but can’t.

I always wanna see your face, see your beauty and grace, but i know if its said right now, it will never be the same again

2nd:

The thought of you with somebody else makes me feel so empty and if you did my heart would break.

It might sound like a cliche but there is nothing i wouldnt do for you.

i’d move heaven and earth, dodge a bullet, but i cant help but think even if i say all this, it’ll be for nothing.

Chorus:

it will never be the same again, pulling out from each other’s hand. I try to imagine the best scenario but can’t.

I always wanna see your face, see your beauty and grace, but i know if its said right now, it will never be the same again

Middle:

I always think that nothing worth having comes easy and thats so true.

but how many times do you have to get knocked down after fighting for it, before you give up?

Chorus: (x2)

it will never be the same again, pulling out from each other’s hand. I try to imagine the best scenario but can’t.

I always wanna see your face, see your beauty and grace, but i know if its said right now, it will never be the same again